Board Thread:News and Announcements/@comment-37166874-20181017130952

I'm leaving KK Wiki again. For good this time. I thought I could stay here, but it's turned into someplace I don't even want to be.

I do not plan to return.

For the past few months, I've watched this wiki morph from a fun, happy, and interesting place to a drama center where nearly everyone's suspicious, suicidal, and/or planning to leave. I've watched it turn from a successful informational wiki to a wiki where random CC trolls come and destroy friendships and many other aspects of this wiki. I've watched it turn from a place where I felt welcomed and happy to a place where I feel uncomfortable. I've watched it turn from a place where I was cared for to a place where everyone is suspicious of me and acts the enemy. Sometimes, it makes me cry. At the end of every day, I sit awake for hours, contemplating the best ways to commit suicide. I never felt that way before I came here.

You all have been instrumental in my life as friends, teachers, and role models. A few of you, including AcceledAcceled, Popstar792, and Phantom of the dark were there when I was on chat, literally about to kill myself. You stopped me. Some of the most life-impacting users here for me were AcceledAcceled, Pinkiepie445, Lehcar708, and SirGawain8. You four took me under your wings and helped me through some of my darkest times.

That said, I am lately beginning to shut myself out. I've somehow morphed from who I once was into someone who envelops herself in a cocoon, where everyone else is on the outside, trying to look in. Every day, I've started to feel more and more suicidal, and nearly on the verge of making another attempt to get rid of myself and escape this life. I never felt this way before I came here.

This is why I feel that I must leave again. This wiki has grown and morphed into a place that I no longer can stay at. I do not any longer feel at home or safe here. I once again have returned to those dark times I thought I had escaped. The friends I have made here have started to slip away from me into their own lives, shutting me out and forgetting me.

I have served my purpose here, and I can no longer be of any help or service to anyone.

This is why I must say goodbye once again.

This time for good. 