Board Thread:Games Tent/@comment-31322722-20180731222350

First off, I would like to share my original thoughts that led to me banning myself.

I’ve officially banned myself from the Kart Kingdom and PBS KIDS Wiki using the admin privileges I was given. I haven’t been happy there, so I decided that I should finally quit it once and for all for my sake.

Technically I shouldn't be on there anyway. I was the cause of its creation to begin with, and, even though the purpose of the actual wiki has supposedly changed, the fact still remains that it was created because everyone wanted to create an online world where I didn't exist. So no matter how things have changed over the last year or so, this only seems right.

It's one of those situations where you really want to fix things, but no matter how much you apologize and try to make up for everything you destroyed, nothing changes. For instance, I've been noticing that everyone on the wiki has been acting like they wish I wasn't on the wiki. And now that the new wiki exists, so many people are going there, and the original wiki has been very empty. Things just aren't the same. But I'm in no position to complain. I did this to myself, and I ruined everything, so I'll accept whatever punishments I have to.

Now, I checked a few minutes ago to find that my adminship was revoked, which I was perfectly fine with. But I checked all recent activity, and found this (right).

I don’t really care about any of this, really, anymore. However, I thought that I should at least address it, since I find these accusations to be incorrect, and I should hope that any of the users committed to the other wiki should see this and that everything I have to say registers.

“Overbearing behavior”

To begin, I don’t quite understand why I’m being accused of this. At all. I don’t remember any instance whatsoever where I showed “overbearing behavior” and if I did, it certainly wasn’t intentional.

“Lack of respect of the feelings/opinions of others”

Okay, really, I don’t get you people. I realized my mistakes before (the ones I had actually made, anyway) and never forced my opinions on anyone, or cyber-bullied anyone, or anything of the sort after I was accepted into that wiki. I tried to be nice. If this is referring to last night, then allow me to make this very clear: there’s a point where I draw the line. And that’s when all of you start making assumptions again and acting all annoyed with me. The only reason I acted out of line to BEGIN with was because none of you actually listened to what I had to say!! You misunderstood me, and then didn’t bother to understand me. And the fact that Elks played her little trick on me and twisted my words, and never said what SHE did didn’t help matters. I get that none of you particularly like me, and I understand why things can be a little awkward with me, but don’t act like this. I don’t have any malicious intent.

“Just a perfectionist”

When have I ever been a perfectionist? You should know by now that constructive criticism is not the same thing as perfectionism. I give criticism because I’m trying to help someone improve (no matter how much you disagree with that), and I certainly don’t believe in this “fake praise” standard you all have taken on. If I say that something is “not perfect”, that’s not me saying that it should be perfect. It’s my alternative way of saying that it could use some work.

“It’s very sickening”

Well, it sure is wonderful to know that you, Elks especially, have always been so fake towards me, and tried to convince me that it wasn’t fake, so that even though you didn’t convince me at all, I would feel bad about going any further, and guess what? You actually all hate me to your very core.

I’m sorry if I was a little passive-aggressive in this, but I can’t just let people make claims about me that aren’t even true. I’m just trying to fight back, and I don’t want anybody (I know how Elks, once she’s against someone, will be as mean as she can be to them for a long time) to just reply without reading this, especially if they’re thinking about writing something mean about me, because trust me, I don’t want any problems. I know you all think that I just want to argue, but that isn’t true. Most of the time, I’m just trying to make false statements clear that they are false. The last thing I want is to wake up to a bunch of hate messages. It only makes things worse. 